I didn't want to do it anyway.

I'm in the business of making things my business.

This is going to be great.
I have lots of aces up my sleeve.

Whatever .

"Would you be bored in the company of your favourite person?
Of course not, so be your own best friend.
Lonliness will soon be in your past.
After all, you will always have yourself".
Dr C. Saunders - Women and Stress.


I'd love to say that all I needed was myself,
but misery loves company.

A calling?

Work at Home - Phone Psychics

We are seeking casual Live Operators to work from home on our line.


Experience is not necessary 

We only ask that you apply 

if you have a genuine ability 

to give Psychic/Clairvoyant advice.


You must be willing to submit to 1 -2 test calls 

with members of the general public who will 

assess your accuracy, 

psychic ability 

and communication skills.

**********************************************

Man, jobs like that are scarce.

Unfortunately, 

I don't have two of the three skills.

It's the Year of the tiger, it's the cream of the fight Risin' up to the challenge of our rival

I am having a good old fashioned lock-in this weekend.

Just me and kitty-lou, 

making our own fun.

Her eating gekkos

and being bossy to the cat next door,

me tidying up, 

watching the end of Dexter S4,

watching Rambo (maybe not all of it),

getting photo's organised for M,

find my UK trip photos,

reading my Women and Stress book,

maybe bake a cake, 

sort out my cds

that I've been dying to indulge myself in

for a while,

maybe make something,

paint something, 

draw a comic

most of all,

both of us will be doing a shit load of sleeping.

I feel that too much has gone on lately, 

and I'm tired and I need to rest and do my own thing.

The School of Life's latest email offered the following

"The remedy for feeling down is to let other people into your heart."

I don't feel down, 

I have down thoughts every now and then, 

but right now, 

the last thing I want

or need

is to let someone into my heart.

Aside from those already there I suppose.

Going to The Berlin Bar with Dollface tonight, 

looks very fun.

 

http://www.youtube.com/user/kropinak#p/u/0/NT7UHDtPBys

Significant other.

To be opened on the 14th February 2010.

Dear Significant Self,
By the time you read this,
I will have already thought of
a million reasons,
why this will be a waste of time.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself,
you're here and that matters,
for some unknown reason,
here and staying aparently.
Yes everything is a waste of time,
yes we all die in the end,
yes the whole world is living a pointless
existence,
look around you,
sitting on the 467,
everyone doing their thing,
no point to it,
not one single bit,
but save heartache
to loved ones,
you're here and
you need to do your thing too.
Possibly 35 more years left,
if you're lucky.
Enjoy them.
Worse to end up thoughtless,
than memoryfull.
Love C.

Smokers outside the living room door.

Charlotte is such a lovely lovely looking girl.

I know that I shouldn't stress so much

about the little things, 

but the smokers in my garden,

have made me want to move out.

I confronted them

and they didn't like it.

They know they're in the wrong.

(I'm pretty sure they're in the wrong).

Seriously though, if I went over to their house

and sat in their garden every 15-20 minutes

to have a cigarette

outside their living room window...

I don't even need to justify the reasons.

Before I left today, 

I poured water over the 

carpeted step that they sit on.

Just in case my instructions weren't clear.

P.S.

Sorry about the title to this post.

Losing my religion

Losing my faith in my ability to survive in the woods.
I'm out here all alone,
bears and snakes and centipedes with pinchers
all trying to have a stab at killing me softly,
inch by inch.

All the difficult little bits of life,
seem to be coming at me like fecking flies on a hot day.
FUCK OFF ALREADY

-Hi, I left my wallet on the bus this morning.
"Okay, well I'll have a chat to the three bus drivers and we'll see if
we can find it, what colour is it?"
- Red
"Okay I'll do my best, but you know the school kids are back now."
- Sigh.

**************************************************
Okay found my wallet and am getting M and A to collect it today.

Told K.
"Oh dear, I said a little prayer to Saint Anthony for you darling".

Faith restored? 

Thieves in the night.

I've noticed my work has been hindered
since losing my stapler remover.

Also on the topic of thieves,
putting a name label on your pen,
doesn't guarantee that it wont get stolen.

I'm hoping that a lion flag might do the trick.

Next, I'm going to attach a bloody tampon.
(Pun intended not actual blood).

HANDS OFF MY STUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Visiting hours, are when I'm home.

Just a few more things to get organised
in my new house now,
internet,
tv,
post box,
general waste bin,
hairdressers to stop smoking in my garden.

I can't wait to go home,
still haven't come down from
stress of waking up late this morning.
My routine is all out of whack.

Spilt my drink on A's desk,
my coffee on E's sleeve
and the floor.

Called the real estate,
apparently I can tell the smoking girls
myself
to stop smoking.

Little problem with being unable
to confront people I don't know,
I might just put a No Smoking sign in my window.

I need a cigarette.

Alright? What's occuring?

Can't sleep.
Sad coz I'm losing both my best friends.
Dollface albeit late March,
and A albeit for a few weeks.

I already miss them.
To the point where I feel so clingy
that I need to push them away,
A especially, I feel it'd harden me up
in a way, going into survival mode.
I'm sorry.
Quite selfish of me really,
should be happy for everyone,
well I am, but you know.
Won't have Internet for first week
or so in new place,
or at my parents' this weekend.
All a bit too much, this survivor
attitude.
Keep calm and carry on huh?

I suppose M and I are good friends,
and that I'm sure if I need anything
he'll be there, for the interim anyway.

I'm also laying here awake dreaming
that someone comes into my new house
and instantly says 'there's evil here'.
I've lived alone for many years,
can easily sleep when M goes out,
have no problems with noises,
but I suppose it's getting used to everything
again.