Up there for thinking, out there for spontaneity.

Is it too early to go to work?
3.19am
Haven't slept yet,
and not likely to either.

Had the last of my spontaneity classes
last night,
we were given feedback and recommendations
to proceed onto narrative.
R told me that she's enjoyed watching
me go from shy to confident,
but that I get lapses of brain freezes,
ultimately I was too inside my head.

She told me to have a conversation
with myself about whether I really
want to progress to narrative.


Is it that fucking obvious that I live alone?